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每人有权利决定他人的幸福，大家都有选择的权利。你做了你的选择那他人呢？

so many things running through my mind.
i guess perhaps it's time to start thinking for myself
wisdom. to be with the right people
i don't know what would happen
but i sort of feel that i've changed.
yes, i have but i don't know where. but one thing i know for sure, that is, i need to learn to say NO.
i should stop worrying about judgement and all
yes. stop. but why am i so afraid.
this has always been a weakness and it gets me upset.
sigh. but i'm sure this will surely be a strength one day.
perhaps i should stop pleasing others and start pleasing myself. yes. i mean pleasing myself.
i guess its a learning process?
maybe its because of my behavior when i was a kid.

Keep holding on.

SP Open house training and actual days!

19,20, 21, 29,30 dec trainings
4,5,6,7 Jan actual dates!

Dec 31

It's the last day of 2011
it's just too fast
a year has passed
this year has really been a great year
a great year of abundant blessings, love, joy, peace, faith, grace.
I'm thankful for the 365 days full of love, faith & happiness for me this very year.
I've enjoy spending every single day this very year of 2011
Remember the laughter,
the joy,
the hard work,
and the tears.
And as i reflect on the past year,
also think of the new one to come.
Because most importantly,
this is a time of new beginnings and the celebration of life.
Let me write on a brief summary of what happened
I worked
school started and i dreaded it
now i'm slowly enjoying it
not forgetting all the little litle details of us going out and having fun
how life can be :)
but really, 2011 has been the greatest year i've ever had in my life right now
it has really been a smooth flowing year with not much of major hiccups nor unhappiness
i'm happy ^^
can't be more thankful and grateful for such an awesome year of having the
Sweetest Sunday,
Marvelous Monday,
Tasty Tuesday,
Wonderful Wednesday,
Thankful Thursday,
Friendly Friday,
Successful Saturday.
Been a really memorable, sweet year of fun, love, joy, blessing... and on and on and on :)
just wanna end this post by saying,
as 2012 approach,
i'm thankful for everything i have in my life
Last but not least, 2012 will be a year ever better than this year, full of love, strength and health, we would be even more abundantly blessed, favored, full of grace, love, joy, peace, faith, happiness!
Wishing everyone a blessed 2012! ♥

Dec 11

lunch at foodcourt near concord hotel
thai food- pineapple rice!
met twin at 313
walked around orchard w twin
at 1st at 313
then later H&M
tried some clothes
then wisma
and takashimaya
twin wanna buy bag for her laptop
after tt had dinner at at tonkatsu ginza bairin :)

Nov 8

it's tuesday.. class as usual
i had F&B at some place of shatec sch
had awesome food!!!
here are the pics!!

thats all for today ^^

‘Cause you know what? Tragedies happen. What are you gonna do? Give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive. Because you are… and that pain you feel, it’s life.

"When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow."

School holiday is coming to an end.
And very soon, it'll be the end of the year.
How time flies.
Sometimes, too fast. Too fast that sometimes i wish i could slow down my pace and take a look at the things around me.
It's just like a scenario of you sitting in a car and you walking along the streets.
You may be passing by the same place, but it gives you a different exposure to things.
Sitting in a car, you zoom past everything and you hardly have a glimpse of your surroundings.
But if you're walking, your pace is slowed down and you get to enjoy your environment, to appreciate things.
As i look at my school timetable, i wondered to myself.
Wow. what a packed schedule you have.
What happened to the hours of being able to head out and play?
And what more you have an additional diploma plus.
Can you cope?
Well, i hope.
That means i'll have lesser time to go out nor to meet friends.
It's going to be mugging and mugging.

Lets look aside from school for now because it stresses me up.
3 quarter of a year has passed and i guess it has been really fruitful and amazing!
Been a really happy year for now and that things are all on track.
I guess, i've learnt a lot of things this year while working for the starting quarter of the year.
Not forgetting all the days of playing and playing non-stop during holidays.

I think i've spent more time playing out than staying home.
Well, it's also good.
Because at times i really do feel miserable staying home and being condemned by the ones who meant the most to you; family.
But, it's alright. I've learnt my lesson. I've learnt to be strong. To ignore those nasty remarks for they don't deserve my attention.
Neither will you if all that you want is for me to be hurt.
It's just a game. You want to play this game? I'm on.

Just like what happened ytd..
i felt upset. angry. disappointed. not being respected. no privacy.
For the fact that my family took my movie tickets and didn't put the envelop back properly.. its crushed. i give in and tell myself its alright.
Then my mum actually took out the message in the necklace box to read.
I'm not stupid because, i wore the necklace and the message is obviously flipped.
I told myself.. it's alright. Forgive..
And what is worse, is that if you really want to play this game with me, i'll play it on with you.
I can't believe you are such an actor. how pathetic to feel that my mum is being like this.
I really can't believe you asked this question.. "why did u take out the necklace for?"

I'm speechless. Totally speechless. Lost for words. Hold it in. Relax. I don't know what else to say.
My mum?
I associate as.. Someone who shows no respect. Gives no privacy. Act as though she did nothing wrong when she rampaged my things and my brother's things. And place me as the injurer. That i was in the wrong. Mum, you're awesome. Really awesome. You left me speechless.
I feel like giving up at times. But if this is a game, i'm playing it till the end. To see how much more crap you can give me. It surely hurts, but i'm staying strong. For the very fact, you're still my mum.

I'm gonna end this post very soon.
Just want to say,
I'm thankful for the sweet times that i have from the beginning of the year till now.
For the tough times, i'm thankful, it made me learn, it made me grow.
Just like a started this post with this sentence..

"When life is sweet, say thank you and celebrate. When life is bitter, say thank you and grow."

I'm ending with it too.

Oct 12

headed out in the morning!
10am at compass point.
met jj, fsj, gerald, kenneth, junde and headed to vivo :)
met joash, weilong and yiliang at vivo.
went timezone.
then headed to sentosa
played games
volleyball then soccer. joked and all
seriously love the times with them!
just have to be yourself withour feeling awkward or anything
5 years of friendship so it's great! :)
then we went to koufu to have lunch then walked around sentosa :)
went to the merlion and took pics but we didn't go up
bought jellybeans from candylicious! :)
there after we walked around and then walked back to vivo :)
stayed a vivo for awhile before leaving the group while they headed on to watch movie
there after headed to orchard centrepoint starbucks to chill.
had dinner :))
then went home :)