memories kept

~YEAR 2007~

~YEAR 2008~

~YEAR 2009~

Lynette: I really enjoy the days together with you. Still remember all the days we did all the things together. It just so interesting and fun. I can't imagine choir without you. Its like one of the sisters lost. The kind of feeling inexpressible. The thoughts, comments and laughter together with teresa wad great. =]

I can't help myself but to blog now. that event sure hit me hard in my heart. its getting me heart ache now. i still can't get over it. choir.. i finally realize how important choir is to me now. if not for syf, i would not know that choir is part of my life and how i would feel without it. choir. i still remember how choir started off 3 years ago. that very few of us. i cried when mr chong told us about how we progressed. i started crying and stopping. i recall how we grown over the years. how we started. how we progressed. its like a book, like a story. a story about how choir was. to me these were stories told to me. each moment each celebration. i've seen each and every practice and event myself and these were storis and memories to me. i wonder how would it be like to leave choir in future? i guess i wouldn't be able to take it. year 2007, year 2008, year 2009. day by day, year by year, we progressed and moved forward. moving on from where we fall. let this syf be a lesson learnt and that we should work hard for every event that we have. it might not matter to you, but it might matter to others. lower sec you still have another chance. upper sec don't. so this hits us hard. it feels as though a heart is shattered. never to be put back again. it needs time to heal. when sec 4s leave, im bond to weep again, i just can't take it. i can't bear for them to leave. it just feels hard to accept fact. but im going to start to move on. just like how i did in january...

i have been longing to blog since the day of our syf ended
but to my surprise, my mood got over me and i felt totally down and didn't want to blog
like wad i said syf. yesterday was our syf and so we had to wake up early
5.08am i got out of bed. as mum woke me up. i didn't sleep well as i was worried i could not get up
everything ran smoothly and we went to school and reached at 6am
thanks to yvonne's dad for sending us to school.
everything ran and ended smoothly. what we was signs of relieve that syf was finally over
we were back in school and glad and cheerful
we ate and went back to class.
however, things were not as smooth as we thought would be.
4pm in the afternoon, mr chong drove, teresa, lynette and i to victoria concert hall to listen to the announcement of the results
it was a total disappointment
on the car i was nervous and scared of what the result would be like
upon reaching and next hearing the reults, my heart sank to the bottom
totally disappointed choir did our best in our singing
we thought we could clinch bronze but we didn't C.O.P
it was really sad. i couldn't describe my feelings at that point of time
it was a feeling of sadness, wanting to cry yet unable to cry
because i was trying to control myself
one because im diasppointed
second because i "regret" that i didn't manage to achieve anything before graduate next year
as you know syf is 2 years once so thats my last chance
i felt so bad and i had no mood yesterday night that i went to sleep and i still can't sleep
and this morning i was still so sad
people asked me about results and i didn't want to say C.O.P its just so disappointing
even i now i still feel sad
mr chong called for choir this morning to pick up their belongings and proceed to the humanities room
i didn't know what he was going to say but at least i know it would be sad
neither could any of us feel.. idk just sad i guess really sad
of course i couldn't help my self from crying out because i have been trying to be strong since yesterday
but its best to cry out and i feel much better now. one by one we all started crying out. even now i still feel the pain of hardwork put in but not blossomed
things were just unexpected
how strong can i be? i guess i can't
least i feel better after crying. really better.
anyway would like to thank all people who consoled me since yesterday night till today
and even now. thanks so much for the support and that you people were always there to make me smile and make me laugh
not forgetting out choir teachers mdm rosita and mr chong,
our conductor, mr hu and our pianist who put in so much hardwork and hours of tough practice with us.
i guess i see who are the ones who would be able to listen to me and hear me when i need to talk
who would be able to make me laugh and cheer me up
=] really thanks alot
what we've gotten is the results.
not forgetting the process of our hardwork even though our labour of hardwork did not blossom
its since been a long time since choir sang to our best.
we've tried our best and our really best
even with a heart that is still so down i believe i will get over it soon
so im going to think through about it and start focusing on my studies for now.
i just can't accept that fact that we put in our best but we acheived nothing.
forever dedicated to choir PHSSCHOIR

choir
choir
choir
syf
syf
syf
tmr's ayf and im just so excited yet afraid of it
but we'll do our best
3 years in choir
and i've seen how it has progressed
choir has really grown...
grown lots, from how we first start =]
really great
choir we've grown and tmr's our most important day
we must do our best jiayou jiayou

life is not always what we want
things and obstacles get into our way
things may not be what you want but what you have to do is to change the facts
why is it that sometimes when u make the wrong choice, the whole idea changes
when you can't understand something, it'll be a complete mess
why did some people not appear before you but after you?
some people cheers you up but some people don't
some people make u laugh but some people don't
when i'm there your not
when you are, i'm not.
why life? life is just full of mysteries.
will you? how would things turn out to be. funny? interesting? weird? just hope it'll be fine
now smile then don't be so sad...

well, IFD competition tmr for the sec 3s
haha jyjy 3E2
all the best even though i cannot be there
i will wear class tshirt to support them =]
shall study hard
jyjy grace you can do it

im sick once again
i don't know why im so weak this year
damn irritated by my sickness
and i am totally stressed out
STRESSED
why is it that no matter how hard i study i will only be able to pass on the dot?
its just so ridiculous and when i see it i feel like crying
because its like just so unrealistic
why do people who do not study get good marks while i study si hard but what i get in return is just a pass
i always get very disappointed with my marks
but why? whats the reason behind it? can anyone be able to tell me? wads wrong?
i am just so frustrated with my marks. why?
i feel very sick and tired of all these marks. its really too tough for me when i see this marks
shall continue to work hard and do my homework

class tee =]

lols new clothes =]

day out to red star restaurant

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lols facebook quiz are just so fun and somewhat true haha...

anyway, yesterday went down to novena to make class tee
wow when the design came out it was so nice
can't wait to collect it.
after making the class tee, went to bugis to meet my mum, kuku, 5th aunt
waited there for like 20mins so long
then went to find 8th aunt then went to eat...
ate roti prata: mr prata at bugis junction
cheese and sausage so nice and lime juice
$6 plus, 5th aunt gave me $20 to buy. and gave $14 to me to keep. lols thanks aunt
then went shopping
and is to shop for me =]
went to find shoes 1st but can't find
so find clothes went to one shop bought 2 clothes both blouse actually wanted to buy 3 but then of which 2 were same design but diff colours only so didn't buy the blue one
1 piece was $29.90 but got discount so it was $23.90 each piece
went to another shop: graphite so ex lor the clothes $38.90 per piece
and its just those normal one bought 2 but lucky it had 80% discount so it was $8.30 each lols branded zzz 5th aunt paid for the 2 blouse and the 2 clothes also
then went on shoping for shoes can't find... 1st uncle came down and meet us for dinner
after dinner he went to his gathering and we went to this fashion
wakakaka muahaha bought 10 clothes total of $80 plus registered for member $10 so ended up $70.40.
man now just remember i forgot to buy the one with the vest. wasted.
lols kuku paid for the $70.40 omg la
im like so paisei they bring me out to buy clothes. just the clothes they spent $135.20
plus $20 she gave its $155.20 plus dinner $158.20
round off i spent $160 just ytd and have not buy any shoes, both my flats and normal heels
if i buy it'll be like another $50- $60
wow thats scary if i have bought it. anyway thank you so much for your gifts
haha they said my early bdae gifts so early still 3 mths away till july
haha i see how much they dote on me now haha ^^
love you people lots thanks so much for making my day happy =]

friday was the speech day rehearsal
well, time just flys so fast and its over
all the hard work that we've put in has finally come to an end
time to focus on out syf and studies already
speech day was great even though some of it wasn't as great
funny parts of that day.. haha many ppl wanted to take pics with me
wanted me to sit beside them haha lolsthe singing of the song was great
many ppl messaged me saying it was really very nice.
and they were all into the song ^^ so thumbs up choir
now time to focus on syf okay? workhard!!!

haha shall start saying from yesterday...
april's fools so dumb lor me...
reach lrt only... cheated by chern tiong... tell me shoe lace lose.
then go till school cheated by porntep... tell me geo geo test.
then recess cheated by melvin... tell me someone behind me.
cheated by the 3 of them... then ytd speech day rehearsal... sucks like hell lor
cannot take it but its over now so idc...
today go hyper dunno why even though very sleepy due to yesterday reaching home at 740.
so freaking happy today dunno for wad reason also keep laughing lor cannot stop
today ss lesson neary tio caught by mr abdan lor.
cherntiong keep asking me for the puncher then me and him throw here and there.
then mr abdan call him then ask him wad he punching then he say ss. then he show him the paper then i laugh... lols act blur... haha
geo lesson today was the best for me haha made me so happy =]
saved the whole class... whoot!!!
so shiok... mrs ali want us to write 1 paragraph of the geo rivers and coast thinggy
then i write very fast then finish already then i run up give mrs ali
then she read... say a few points missing but say its alright then say can already.
haha then saved all of them... can go home haha so fun.
i took only 3 mins to write that 1 paragraph lor. so fun haha
then maths ace. maths ace today was the only one that i listened attentively lor. 1st time
then choir wa super siao lor me... cannot stop laughing lor
today dunno why keep on laughing cannot stop too high liao
anyway tmr speech day already jiayou choir!
you can do it okay? yippy miss chong is the vip =] im sot already shall stop blogging for now
thats all for today...