Date: Saturday, June 29, 2013
Time: 10:35 PM
Title:
Time: 10:35 PM
Title:
June 29
it's the last 2nd day of June and my like is just WOW
Today is just a super crazy and overwhelming day filled with GOD's LOVE
like OMG! HIS LOVE SLAPS ME UP DOWN LEFT AND RIGHT.
Went for lunch at Food Junction at Raffles City
lunch with like 3 guys at first.. kinda funny, but ya, it was comfortable even though i didn't really know them.
listened to them share and i was just feeding and feeding on the word
And then headed to arrow
everything is so AWESOME! The word is just for me.
Vindication. Agape love. Salvation of your loved ones.
Vindication. Do not be self centered or keep basing your approval of yourself on your friends and family. Because if one day, they say something negative to you, your whole world crashes. But base your vindication on Jesus- Him and Him alone.
Agape Love. A self sacrificial love. Only Him and Him alone died for you. Not anyone else but Him. And he loves you. Each and everyone of you. He wants you saved.
Salvation. And so i have been praying for salvation of my family and i would love my friends to be saved too. I don't know how, but God, i surrender it all to you. All i have in my hands is a loaded gun with bullets. All i need to do is prayer and praise. And I can do it, for i hold the gun. And the button i have to press is "In Jesus Name".
Yup! and so the sharing was really awesome. And i really got closer to them when i was just complaining that i'm not close to them. Really a sigh from me goes out to the throne of God. Also shared with the girls about my life and all and how amazing was my walk with God.
It's really amazing looking back at how i was struggling in SIP but God's grace gave me not just an A but a Distinction. How i had no time to study for a semester but God gave me a GPA 4. How i desperately needed 300 file pouch and just a prayer, 300 file pouch amazingly appeared just for me. How I got a free ride down the Cable Car because i told God i haven't been sitting a cable car for years. And How God miraculously gave me an open door to Rohei and assured me that i will get in.
He over exceeds my expectations. I know it is kind of crazy because when i was choosing for my company, I told God i want to get into a Christian Based Company. And so i stumbled into Rohei's website and spent hours on this company despite the whole list of choices. And so God told me that this is the company for me. I was worried that i wouldn't get in, but I did. All stress free. The interview was peaceful and restful. And only to find out that they have weekly prayers and the base it on the bible. I'm just so BLOWN AWAY by the love of God for me
So HIGHLY FAVORED, DEEPLY LOVED AND GREATLY BLESSED. Jesus, thank you. I want to experience more of your love and your grace for me Lord. Overwhelm me with your love. AMEN!
Date: Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Time: 10:07 PM
Title:
Time: 10:07 PM
Title:
June 25
hello world!
i don't know who exactly reads this but well, it doesn't really matter
i'm feeling really blessed and happy today
i feel very loved somehow
PTL! :)
Am so glad that i stepped out in faith to talk to a friend today and to lift him up
will be praying for you!
i'm sure you will be a testimony to God that you'll be healed naturally.
somehow i feel that my spirit is really very filled today
so full that it needs to spill out
so full of love today, so blessed, so filled that i just want to bless others
Date: Saturday, June 22, 2013
Time: 6:17 PM
Title:
Time: 6:17 PM
Title:
Communication takes practice,yet it's never perfect,
sometimes not patient,sometimes not kind,
but you have to say what's on your mind.
Sometimes all i need is a lending ear,
listen not just hear.
Communication is not a one way street,
it takes two, to concur this feat.
Communication is hard you see,
but in the end,it is key - to that great relationship,
Open your heart,say what's on your mind,
patience while you listen.
All i need sometime, is just a listening ear.
I'd rather communicate, than to give up fully.
To the day where there's no longer a point to explain.
It hurts at times, but i guess i just need you to listen.
Not just push me away.
Date: Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Time: 7:03 PM
Title: In the light of your glorious grace
Time: 7:03 PM
Title: In the light of your glorious grace
Ask and you shall receive
Seek and you shall find
Knock and it will be opened unto you
See the first 3 letters of each sentence? It's ASK.
He said ASK.
And yup! Since it's a year of open doors and i have the Key of David, the door is open!
He told me that there will be a peace that surpasses all understanding. That i do not have a spirit of fear but of power and of love and sound mind. All i needed to do was to REST.
There I go, i'm chosen by Rohei.
HEI- breath of God
HEI- HE > I
HEI- GRACE
Through it all, He dropped me hints
Yes, you guys may be thinking i'm mad and probably all these sound cliche but i don't really care because i know what it means to me
And how important it is for me.
Praise the Lord! I'm really happy for myself! so loved and blessed! ♥
Here's part of a song of Glorious Ruins which will be out real soon:
When the world caves in
Still my hope will cling
to Your promise
When my courage ends
Let my heart find strength
In Your presence
Date: Saturday, June 15, 2013
Time: 11:25 PM
Title: His world revolves around me
Time: 11:25 PM
Title: His world revolves around me
woman's meeting on Sat evening began
bought some jellies over for the girls
we started playing some bonding games
and heart to heart talk
really hate it when it comes to heart to heart talk sessions
i always end up crying
sigh.. there's just too many things in my heart and my mind
and whatever that i wrote on the piece of paper was maybe just a part of it?
when the session began, i already wanted to cry already.
ugh.. and so ya.. i ended up crying like so weakling.
seriously embarrassing. i gotta learn to be stronger
they must be thinking i'm mad.. and keep crying all the time they see me
thereafter we had dinner- chicken rice, brownies, ice cream, pudding, jelly
i had fun with them and gotta know more about them too
at least we all can talk
:D
and yes most importantly
i loved the sharing on how the First lover of our life is so willing that he wants to be our husbands
there's no need for us to compromise to our partners
we girls are very precious
And i guess that really spoke to me a lot
that i am precious, safe in His arms
there's no need for me to compromise in any relationship
i don't have to always be the one waiting, taking initiative, giving care and the concern
He is willing
He is the gentleman
He is perfect
He loves me so.
He's the one who is there waiting for me always
He's the thoughtful and caring one
He's knows me inside out.
He loves me so.
His world revolves around me, and he wants to be the man in my life. He loves me so.
Thank you for the unfailing love.
OHANA means family. Family means nobody gets left behind. ♥
Date: Thursday, June 13, 2013
Time: 10:18 PM
Title: i'm falling to pieces
Time: 10:18 PM
Title: i'm falling to pieces
hey world~
life's been torturing me i guess?
been having such a hard time at home and i wish that i can just leave this world and disappear somehow
i guess i ought to learn to be stronger.
till a day where i can just learn to be so resistant to every thing that is happening
it's time i learn to grow up alone. yes alone.
like i always said, we all end up alone someday, somehow
as much as we all can get negative and down and all alone, seeking for the love of others and care, concern, but how long would all these last, coming from human efforts?
and then when i go out, hide myself in a cafe, resist the lonely look from strangers, feeling so alone and intimidated by everyone around me.
i start walking quickly only to pretend i'm going to do something important
wishing to sit down at a quiet cafe or a restaurant yet seeing the crowd, i feel withdrawn, not feeling confident to go in for a meal
and then it repeats all over again, me walking around aimlessly.
till the crowd subsides, i subtly try to fit in, in a corner- i wish
but i always end up choosing a seat right smack in the middle of an awkward position
sigh. that aside. i started learning how to play 童话 on the piano. it was good. somewhere for me to escape for a while i guess?
i guess we're all like little music keys, we get pressed on to shine and produce the good that we have and once our notes doesn't fit in, we're neglected.
i guess i must be too bored to be learning how to play that song?
if you'd ask if i knew how to play a piano? trust me. NO. i don't.
but it really isn't hard
i must be outta my mind to be playing that song and writing out the chords without even googling pressing notes after notes to find out which note goes next.
it took me only a day to master it. it takes time, but it's fun.~
i don't know but i feel so like this song right now "Failure in disguise"
Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, "Where has everybody gone?"
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?
Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder "Will they even understand?"
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up.
Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?
Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight--
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
Just don't give up;
I won't give up.
Date: Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Time: 3:06 PM
Title: I'm not broken, just bent
Time: 3:06 PM
Title: I'm not broken, just bent
We all are a little weird; We all have flaws.
We all have made mistakes.
We all have changed in some sort of way.
We all have our insecurities.
We all have those days where you just want to leave the world.
We all don’t have to be tough every minute of every day.
It’ okay to let down your guard which can be the best thing you could possibly do.
There are going to be days when you won’t have the energy or drive to get out of bed.
There are going to be days when you’re going to want to give up – give up on life, or any other thing.
Sure, you’re gonna hit a few bumps along the way, but you've got to pick yourself up and move on.
There comes a point when you have got to stop relying on other people to make you feel okay.
You've got to stop saying, “I need you”.
You've got to stop saying, “I'm alone”.
You've got to stop feeling like you can’t live without someone, because guess what? You can.
There is no one in this world who knows how to pick you up better than yourself.
Sometimes there won’t be someone who can fix you when you’re breaking.
Sometimes you’re just alone, and you know what? That’s good.
Because if you don’t know how to fix yourself when you’re broken, you won’t get anywhere.
It’ll seem like the worst thing in the world at first, but I promise you if you don’t run to anybody, if you just give yourself a chance, you’d be surprised what you can accomplish.”
Life will never be perfect, no matter how hard you try.
Even if you pour your heart and soul into it, you will never have that perfection you seek.
There will always be broken hearts, there will always be days where nothing goes right.
But you must accept and learn that even the most imperfect things will always be made better with love and laughter.
It’s not that everything will be easy or exactly as you had expected, but you must just choose to be grateful for all that you have, and happy that you got a chance to live this life, no matter how it turns out.
She has her days when she feels like breaking down and crying until her eyes hurt because she feels like
everything is falling apart and there isn't one thing she can do about.
Like she has no say whether or not her life goes well.
Life isn't an easy ride.
There are ups and downs, twists and turns, but in the end,
she smiles and tells herself that it’s alright.
Some people wear their smiles like a disguise.
Those people who smile a lot, watch their eyes.
I know cause I’m like that a lot.
You think everything’s okay, and it is till it’s not.
Date: Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Time: 10:36 PM
Title:
Time: 10:36 PM
Title:
June 4
did some community work today- something my family can never understand
i wonder where i even get my compassion from since no one in my family thinks all these things are meaningful especially my mum
heartless.
sometimes we're all living in a too blessed environment that we can no longer have the heart to sympathize with others
we are all humans right? shouldn't the poor be helped? shouldn't the disabled be helped?
i don't know but i really hate it that every time i want to do community work i get scolded
my mum hates me doing community work. she thinks it's useless. so what? next time when you're old you wish to have no one to bring u food and all? i don't get it
my dad and bros thinks it's useless too. like why?
they didn't allow me to study humanitarian aid for my second diploma.
whats wrong? i really don't know. enlighten me?
is helping others out there that bad? i feel satisfied each time after doing community work because i know i've managed to help someone/ changed a small part of their lives even if it was a mustard seed.
what about you guys? sometimes, i feel so withdrawn from the whole family.
i start to feel rejected from all of u guys. you guys never gave me a chance for me to let you understand. and so i'll never give u the chance for u to understand me coz it never meant something.
sorry but i'm just someone too hard to love.
