i've given up on my chance to go back to china this September holidays i sort of regret but i had to make a choice. i don't know if im making the right choice or not. but one thing i can say, thats what i chose and shall not regret it hais so sad la. anyway, cousin, uncle 4, kuku they're all back family noisy already cannot study so today stayed till 6 to study then go home. hais so uncomfortable here pe rocks lols hmm going watch food inc tmr =]
Date: Thursday, July 30, 2009
Time: 8:05 PM
Title: thoughts
hais so much things to say, so much things to do i've decided not not write each and every feeling out. and guess, it'll be stuck in my mind hmm had a weird dream ytd nite, hmm... really weird abt someone. hmm whats past past, shall not think
He who laughs at himself never runs out of things to laugh at.
Date:
Time: 7:23 PM
Title: it isn't any better
well life isn't getting any better than i thought it would be. things me smiling the way it seems even if you see me smiling in front of you, but actually im not feeling good inside it might seem as though im perfectly fine but im not. i just don't want to worry anyone out there. and i understand it. but its only me that understands this thing sometimes, i really don't like the character of mine. being too nice does not good people would just climb over yr head. i choose not to blow up. and i mean it. so stop your *** from irritating me okay i guess this time i cannot take it anymore but to scold some *****s from disturbing me im not who u think i am okay from now on let me tell u im not going to talk to you, ans yr call, nor i will see you!!! sick people in their mind especially ********** go and die!!!--- sorry but i can't help to say that. shall go eat blogging abt u two *****s are waste of time
Date: Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Time: 8:42 PM
Title: memories sad
well school was boring to today. nth much also except the fact that =] lynette gave choir gifts haha thanks so much lynette. hmm i've got lots to say to her. but i dun have the time now. so sorry. and then family.. hais nbm its irritating i dun like the way things are now. so horrible. its affecting my life. i really dun like it. tts the reason if u ask me why i want to study in school me and my younger bro just quarrelled i just dun understand why i wan to do my homework yet he comes and disturb me blocking me from doing my homework. using my com without permission. what is this? younger bro ya i know i shld let you. but this isn't the right time right? u even eat in my room. and dirtied the whole place and never clean up. i've got test tmr, homework to do. and things to do using com and yet u are doing this. causing chaos to the hse and because of that dad and mum quarrelled. i know its partly my fault also. i can't deny but this really isn't the right time. i need to do homework and u are using my com to play games games okay not work and bro com is not used why can't u use it? its not the 1st already okay ask u nicely pls leave the room u rude to me. many times i needed to use the com for projects and you? bugging the com and dun let me use it. this really cannot go on like this ok i can't take it anymore. i need peace. peace ok. coming home to study i can't do it. this hse is chaotic and noisy not a place for me to study. not a good environment at all. but here i really wan to apologise to my parents for causing the trouble and cauing them to quarrel i guess i'd better stop blogging coz its causing me to cry once again. sometimes i really don't know who i can talk to abt all these. its really hurting me in my heart. bottling up. i will explode eventually one day and believe it i will explode. ='[ family problems aren't getting any better. its hurting ='[ girl, you ought to be stronger.
if given a chance, i don't want to go through all these. its too hurtful
Date: Sunday, July 26, 2009
Time: 3:53 PM
Title: cheer up gal. its alright.
http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/
hahas this blog is damn cute you should take a look at it hahas =]
well sometimes i wonder why. if things hadn't moved this way how would it be like then? questions running through my head. but i get no answers so i've decided not to think abt it council meeting tmr. hais i hate council meetings these days. i how wish there weren't council at all. i wonder if i had not chosen this pathway how would i be like now? life is just so weird when you just think about the other route that will happen if you hadn't chosen this route at all.
gosh thanks lot to the people who posted the help to turn this page back whoot!!! press control + F5 and now i can blog hahas thanks to the people that was in the forum cool okok
pics that i wanted to post finally after so long--- but its take very long
thanks to all ^^
Date:
Time: 11:53 AM
Title: rwars
hmm blogger still has the same problem which makes me unable to put up the pictures. which is like so irritating anyway doing homework now. nth much to do. thinking if i should go and watch food inc--- skipping cca lei & next day geo test or don't watch--- next day geo lesson hais stuck with this problem so cham. guess i'll have to make a choice and decide then
kinda frustrated with the blogger i don't know why when i use it on mozilla firefox if cannot show this screen. so i im using safari to blog now. it really sucks anyway im bored with the problem of being unable to blog using firefox having to change the server to blog will be troublesome. anyway lessons as per normal today recess canteen had songs again hmm nth much also. PE this week was still playing our own games but next week i guess things would have resumed got nth much to blog anyway =]
different ways to say I LOVE YOU je t'aime ( French ) ich liebe dich ( German ) ti amo ( Italian ) eu te amo ( Portuguese ) te quiero (Spanish ) ik houd van u ( Dutch ) jag älskar dig ( Swedish ) 私は愛する ( Japanese ) 사랑해요 (Korean ) 我爱你 ( Chinese )
okay this is crap. im just copying and pasting tts all
Date: Monday, July 20, 2009
Time: 8:14 PM
Title: till a later date
hmm shall post ytd night pics at a l8r date hmm thanks people for the early wishes. thanks to ms tan haha she rock! after so long she still remember my bdae haha =] her favourite student okay hahas saw her message on facebook just now =] so happy aricia smsed me and ask me out just now haha looking forward to tmr lols
"A firm friendship will prove the foundation on your success in life".
Date: Sunday, July 19, 2009
Time: 2:39 PM
Title: crap
went to buy cake just now going to celebrate with family earlier coz dunno if free on tuesday ppl asked me what i liked lols dunno who no mood... bought ice cream cake from swensens dun know why feel so sad like tt. hais dunno la. anyway irritated by how to use my ipod with the itunes dun care le la. whatever's in my com just use lor haha so diff to find the chinese songs. hmm ipod's here and whats next?? my new phone? i hope it would. hais... anyway talked to XXXXXX eek sick in his mind man looks like i misjudged him.... don't wanna say much coz i dun want to say abt it. anyway homework lazy do. lols monday then do ba
Date: Saturday, July 18, 2009
Time: 11:43 AM
Title: moodless once again
went down to chinatown again ytd night damn mp3 no batt somemore i took a new batt okay. but it was one tt has no batt then throughout was like so bored la nth to do anyway. then just go eat lor. so full. now also so full. hmm walked past those old cake shop so went to buy rice cake =] hahas love it :) hmm then just like go eat dinner lor then is like nth la so boring then maybe sunday then go buy cake lor. so sian dunno why so no mood lei. really really no mood at all anyway going to choing all my homework coz i want to rest... hais moodless saw chem results already its a fail... hais
funny dream ytd night. dreamt that he held my hands and send me home after school. hahas he even sent me all the way to outside my house. hahas so sweet lur. i hope it comes true =] i love you
Date: Friday, July 17, 2009
Time: 4:38 PM
Title: and life are full of mysteries
lesson was as usual today nearly fell asleep today in geo lesson and thats when mrs ali called me lols hahas totally shut down. was so tired.. only hyper during PE lesson. I love PE. hahas then recess... Michael Jackson music in canteen then lessons. then school end went home and eat whoo got ipod hahas =] bro gave me his ipod the red one- new one hahas =] thanks bro. my mum say: yr bdae gift from yr bro... lols no la... long story and the ipod got his name behind. lols hmm mum asked me what cake i want for bdae i say ice cream she say where got sell ice cream de. bro say swensens. then she say ee... last yr u buy not nice one. lols nice lor...haha l8r going to see and hopefully i go see phone also =] whoo :) haha in an extreme good mood.
Date: Thursday, July 16, 2009
Time: 8:24 PM
Title: rambling on
this is my blog's 416th post
ate with wenqi at bk today saw sengkiong scary la. he grow so tall already not long ago saw him like still short today so tall ok then just eat then go home i went home then continue eating bk finished at 5pm just now dinner had a hard time finishing it very full. bloated already anyway frustrated with bro use my com, then dunno do what to my msn plus then now got virus on the com. lucky got on firewall and got repair firewall ytd if not die already
Hmmm went compass to eat with wenqi today bohan came along. talked crap with her hahas lunch was damn quiet and im so not used to it at all hmm no fun or laughter then just eat at mac lor so weird la today... we talk about who then the person appear. scary la. and talk about 3 ppl, and 3 ppl appear then wenqi and i was like laughing like siao then went kiddy place buy yingyun bdae present haha in my bag but only bringing on friday hmm i just dunno why la talk about who then who appear got some kind of moody feeling hais kill my mood! hate my mood hmm 1st was coz i talk to wenqi about XXX then i saw XXX then after see XXX change topic say about YYY then YYY appear sia. so see YYY le then dun talk le then talk ZZZ who know go till halfway saw ZZZ. me and wenqi was like... gosh la. what is this then i say dun say who le l8r all appear. hahas funny yet scary
┌ "Love is for the lucky and the brave".┘
Date: Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Time: 4:34 PM
Title: moody day agn
"As the purse is emptied the heart is filled." "Anyone can catch your eyes, but it takes someone special to catch your heart."
Hais i hate this mood of mine. Its like so.. argh. forget it... a cancer is a cancer; can't help its mood. damn pissed by things la. damn stress out! then my mum keep making me pack my things. As we just bought a new book shelf so need to rearrange things but its like so... i've done that stupid packing for like 1h30mins and i have yet to do any homework haven study, haven do council stuff.. im like getting crazy already la. someday i'll go off course... rawr!! i want to ramble and ramble on... grumble and grumble... argh!!! damn no mood again la! frustrated! sometimes i wonder why is studies so tough. if given a choice if i would quit council now? i would... AND I MEAN I WOULD. its just too stressed ACE! ACE! ACE! ACE! ACE! this word 3 alphabets is killing me HATE ACER! feel like so stressed up. wan to cry la. :'( hais dun wan blog le. no mood!
“Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead, Just walk beside me and be my friend”
- Albert Camus
i changed this thing
“Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead, Just walk beside me...”
Date: Monday, July 13, 2009
Time: 8:39 PM
Title: crazy me
having someone to understand you is something real hard... its alright... 我知道我变了。
if having someone to understand you is that hard,
then i'd rather not let that person understand me than to hurt that person.
我真的知道我变了。
但是这也不是我想要的。 为什么事实重是那么的残酷?
我真地发觉我已不是以前的我。
i thought that i could find someone to talk to
but yet what i got in return was something hurtful.
i know things have been drifting apart.
i know that your not only the one that said i've changed
but i don't want this to happen either.
i just wanted to talk to you hoping that since you've been so close to me,
you would understand me
however, it was totally the opposite.
never had i thought that words you said today could actually hurt me so much
but its alright. i guess, you've showed me how the current me is.
i really want back the old me.
would i be able to do that?
i hope i can. but i doubt myself. hais. i guess this time round you've shown me the real me
its time to change back. but it'll be hard. but i'll do my best
我真的不想再这样下去。请你不要再对我有这样的态度。这只会对我有这伤害。
也许当初如果事情没有发生的话,或许现在就不会有这么多的问题。
我心里真的很懊恼,很乱,很烦。 或许这也让我看见我真正的好友。。
对我来说你早已不纯在了。
Date:
Time: 5:35 PM
Title: way before my hearts
well, i guess its meant to be hahas 18 july, Saturday... CIP hahas this year's going to do CIP for the helping hands
council' CIP hahas wouldn't it be nice to spend your days helping someone in need? okay ignore me.. but thinking about helping others would be something better to do instead of only you being happy, why not let others be happy as well? enlighten people's life, make them smile ^^
hahas hmm a Saturday used for CIP
that mean im left with only SUNDAY & if im stuck with homework?
then no more time out for me then.
monday's school...
haha but im perfectly alright with it.
just hope that miracle could happen...
and hopefully it'll be meaningful hahas
wonders what will happen this year...
hoping to get my phone on the 28 JULY haha
why? coz thats the day i got my phone 3 years ago... and im using it now =|
hmm new phone... im waiting for you...
Date:
Time: 3:05 PM
Title: cheers joke
haha okay im posting for fun only coz a message spoiled my mood anyway homework is killing me why did i get sick on saturday? that makes me unable to complete my homework on time gosh im having a weird voice right now no more fever already but im feeling cold i dun wan go school tmr lei. im i having fever now? idk.. hais
happy 2nd mth i love you lots haha ^^
Date:
Time: 2:43 PM
Title: quotes
Date: Saturday, July 11, 2009
Time: 6:09 PM
Title: sick
11 July 2009, Saturday SICK
had flu yesterday and now down with fever. how? i haven do any homework i have been sleeping from yesterday 8pm to morning 1030am and just now 2pm to 5pm haven do homework, means no time to study for other test that coming up omg, i dun wan to be sick.
thanks alot =] tmr the 2nd mth. haha i love you
Date: Friday, July 10, 2009
Time: 3:28 PM
Title: missin..
WENT TO MEET MO AFTER SCHOOL YTD HAHA SHE LOOK SO FAIR =] haha miss her so much la. class buddy =] so long then i get to see her hahas good isn't it the feeling where by u missed someone alot haha still rmb how hard it was to be when she left crying uncontrollably at the airport time flys haha anyway, back from school ace wasn't as bad as i thought haha but im having a stupid bad flu now. PE today rocks haha :D love it! ever seen a class so bond? no right? haha well, played till like my whole face was red, perspiring like mad so tired today la. so someone ask me go home early and rest haha D thanks
misssin' you and just 2 more days
Date: Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Time: 6:42 PM
Title: school isn't as appealing as it is... ='[
school is boring today. however, cme today was fun haha. close yr eyes,imagine u are marrying someone. the feeling,family,relative,yr partner feeling. lols funny la after school ICT... bored now so many homework tt i dun wan to even touch. hais im starting to hate maths i hate chem ='[ must stay back after school on friday coz i failed chem SA hais. because of this im not feeling tt good. hais i want to do well for all my subjects!!! study!!! action speaks louder than words. but with so much amount of work and cca/ council, i don't have time to do my studying at all. i need help...
Date: Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Time: 9:38 PM
Title: nth
hmm nth much to post hahaha coz i forgot got short term memory
Date: Monday, July 6, 2009
Time: 9:43 PM
Title: "It’s all about character. Watch your thoughts; they become words. Watch your words; they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits.
okay ytd had ICT dun really like it had to rush that work anyway, im bored, pissed by homework and stuffs dunno what to say... anyway nth much to post la. nth much these days. im counting still... haha u've said it! thanks im waiting... counting for... not abt... abt smth else..
Date:
Time: 11:18 AM
Title: random feels
rawr crap. hais i really don't understand somethings idk why, why do i.. Argh nvm abt. i just dun understand forget it. 我就是不明白。。。 算了吧! 也许某些事是无法解释的事情。 终有一天事情会变得比较好的。=] argh ignore me anyway. crapping. and if im not wrong two days ago i saw my english tuition teacher that taught me last yr. lols lols no wonder she look so familiar la haha
也许我看错了你,你也不是我现象的那么好。你和他没什么分别。为什么每个我喜欢的男生都对我那么不好?我就是不明白。我以为你会对我比他好。但你和他没分别。我很难过。为什么事实中是那么残酷呢?有人可以告诉我吗? & it truely hurts!!!
Date: Saturday, July 4, 2009
Time: 7:17 PM
Title: out once again
lols idk what to say but, younger bro suspected me with someone... and then elder bro took my phone today to play and know what, he saw the message someone sent me coz i forgot to close and know what, he saw and he pretended to play with my phone trying to give me a thinking that he didn't see anyway, i went to buy cloth for council banner today wow we earned =] the uncle sold it to albinia and i at 10 instead of 12 haha good hor. haha then went to mrt then no receipt then albinia went back to get thanks to her =] didn't go back coz i went down to orchard cinileisure met aricia and karine watched threads of destiny it was nice la. but quite disappointed it wasn't as nice as sky of love. go eat most l8r =] hmm theres this saying which i agree to in the movie out of 3000 people we meet, 300 are friends or family but out of which there will only be 1 whom you will really meet. and it will be the right person for you. its called destiny. hmm i shall upload the trailer =] and right, meeting someone with the same birthday is also one which is really rare. believe it or not, its up to you. anyway i hate that second guy who liked mei la. abuser lor. can't even treat her properly see already angry sia. lols sad to say the 1st guy can treat her well but can't... cannot say so much l8r not fun for ppl who wan to watch
haha i can't help but to always seem to laugh at all your jokes. haha what u smsed wrongly actuallt made me laugh like mad. till my brothers both ask me what happen lols haha
Date: Friday, July 3, 2009
Time: 8:38 PM
Title:
"I'm tired of playing pretend. Pretending is for schoolchildren. Maybe i just wanna fall in love for real this time."
Your soo tired of all these assholes, it's time for something different. You hate throwing the word "love" around and you want it for real this time.
You just need be Calm everyday of your life. You glance near the farthest land or water to pass by to either of anyones eyes can see you have the passion of life.
You care for people even when they have done something bad to you. You are always the one to bring everyone together and love again. You are the best friend and family member.
It'd be no surprise if you fell for one of your close guy friends! You value your friends more than anything so a relationship with one of them would be the perfect fit for you! It may take a little while to get it right but once you do, it's smooth sailing on the love boat! (hehe)
Date:
Time: 1:40 PM
Title: wonder...
why did he appear to be outside of class this morning. why? i saw him, he saw me. i sensed that he was looking at me. but why? is there a motive that he is there looking at me? what does he want? but once he saw someone, he chose to leave the place. i don't know if someone actually realize he left or even saw him. feeling very weird now. when i recall this particular thing this morning. i wonder...
i totally agree with the particular quote below. -Rita Mero I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making you a much stronger person. You can make me smile, you can make me cry but the one thing you can't do is make me stop loving you. A love is like a sun its give us brightness in our life and at night its like a moon its save us from darkness.
okay wadever crap im talking i dun care either. smsed with someone and couldn't stop laughing he's just so... haha XD talking to u is always so fun. anyway pe today height and weight. haha i gained 2 kg. but never grow tall. haha guess im still the lightest in class haha. played voleyball during pe today. why pe so short. it shld have been longer.
I LOVE VOLLEYBALL!!!
Date: Thursday, July 2, 2009
Time: 7:12 PM
Title: if only..
"If you really love someone, you need to let go of them. If they return, they were be yours forever.But if they don't, they never were." ----- mr tong said this in CME lesson and what do you think of this phrase? sounds true? okay whatever, curently addicted to the song 右手边- 光良 hais tired la. see the council banner want die le. i dun want do la. i shld not have said that i know where to get. regret sia. anyway "homework- ing" and eating at the same time. i realised that i am indeed "cold" these days i don't know why but if u don't feel good please do tell me. maybe because of focusing on every lesson and sleeping late thats why i turned out like that now that i sit in front, i hardly talked so... unlike in the past at the back, talk crap a lot. lols hmm...
boy im sorry that i treated you so cold, which i did not realise. now that i realised, i know that im really cold, i'll try not to. i love you so much. don't say u treat me bad okay? no matter what, i'll love you. don't say you treat me badly when i treat you so well. i wonder why do things change... can we turn back to times when we 1st started? i prefer the past. i longed to see my phone so often coz i want to see your message. i love you!!! I love it when you look at me, Because I know for one moment I crossed your mind My love for you is ever long....my love for you is growing strong....I gave you my heart as one...I trust that you wont get it wrong...together forever me and you....I tell you baby 'I love you'
Date: Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Time: 8:18 PM
Title: cheers nah
really impressed with all that you said. sorry if i was cold. don't apologise to me either dun put all the blame on yourself. so touched by your words. dun say tt u are a bully when im so good to you la. dun say tt u treat me badly. now cheer up. smile lots cheer up dun blame yourself le.
"If you really love someone, you need to let go of them. If they return, they were be yours forever.But if they don't, they never were."
fits the song la this phrase.
Date:
Time: 5:25 PM
Title: anglican high school concert =]
went for geography project after school ytd ate at kfc with yenuo, phyllis, valerie, jenna ate till round 4 then went library used the computers to do geo then when we finish it was 5 plus i ran back home bathe then ran out again headed to city hall then walked to marina square went to look for lynette and teresa they went over 1st. hmm walking to marina square food court gave me an aura of a particular event the place which i met you at, so coincidental in the past i smiled as my memories flashed acrossed my mind never had i been that shy that time. and you were as well u saw me and my family while i saw u and your friends haha =] just so coincidental but for what i can say, things are just like sunset and sunrise each and every sunset and sunrise at the same timing each day will never be the same the feeling, the thoughts, sense, the scenery... all these good things even if taken can only be kept as a memory whats best will be what we ourselves experience every experience gives different feelings. coming back to dinner, we ate and proceeded to the esplanade. haha =] the concert was great! loved it haha it rocks.. Anglican High and their standard so high. and maybe sometimes life is meant to be. coincidental things just happen saw Godwin ytd night. didn't know that i would see him in person actually. anyway talked to him just now. haha he told me he was extremely nervous when he conducted yu chang. haha. and he said the other conductor was scary. that conductor can actually only conduct and play piano ( he damn good at it) i thought he could sing but godwin said he couldn't actually. he is always not with the choir. if he is, he will just play the piano. lols now a know smth new. haha godwin asked me how the concert was so i sald: the concert was GREAT =] and know what he said? define great... lols joker haha okay back to the concert, after concert went to the top of the esplanade to look at the view the cold breeze blew across my face, so soft, gentle, and cold- not that cold walked around, went back marina square, went macdonalds drank chocolate milk shake =] wah the milkshake keeps "growing" making me bloated then went home, reached at around 11. dad waited for me at mrt there then came home and do physics workbook sad to say i dunno how to do lur so difficult
p.s. haha lynette ar you think too much le haha =] =]
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