memories kept

whee~~~ lols
out with twin sister today.
so fun!
kbox finally. but didn't have the craving to sing at all.
went marina square for tt.
the room was !@#?? good or bad?? i dunno its weird from the inside you can see the outside.
means ppl coming up from escalator and you don't even know if ppl can see you
phew luckily after we sing finish we went to walk and see
tsk!!! mirror. thought why the ppl all turn and look at us. freak us out la
hahas never mind about that.
then went pizza hut to eat.
yummy. that was our?? tea i guess? but its quite late or is that lunch/ dinner?
forget it
then after that went to get a puzzle
hehe aricia if your reading this, hahas im finishing soon
lols ok joking haven started since just now over there.
ok then mrt home
home then drank soup
still, home cooked soup tastes better
love it!
*P.S. hehe ARICIA!!! im going to start later who knows? hahas
and our vet is still on!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥ CASPAR ♥!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
hoho 22 years already hor!
lols hmm hope you enjoy your day!
last year you didn't get to celebrate your 21st birthday due to eye operation =[
now this year you must enjoy it. but i know its different.
but still. no matter what must enjoy this year's celebration alright.
hmm can see that u not in a good mood. i don't know why but i guess i can understand
coz that was how i felt on this year's birthday. i can't find any reasons to explain or whatsoever but i know that the feeling is really... i don't know. indescribable.
its not the celebration part but is the family part i guess. the way they do things??
irritates ppl right? lols
but i can take it in the sense of keeping it to myself and so do you. and it doesn't feel good so talk to ppl abt it.
dun keep to yourself. your always like this. and so am i.
hmm still alright la huh?
smile always ok?
LOVE YOU LOTS!

-♥ your sister

can you believe? my bro told me that i woke up this morning at 1 plus and talked to him when he was still studying? and know what i told him? my back ache and is very painful. and after that i lie down to sleep. and know what? i don't even know i did this isn't that scary? and this morning i heard my younger bro scream. and when i walk to the bedroom guess what i saw? him sleeping like a pig. i guess im hearing things huh? and sleep "walk". eek scary.

NAILS IN THE FENCE

Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence.

(Most importantly the last sentence)

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his tempe r at all.

He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, 'You

have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. But It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound will still be there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Remember that friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us.'

Show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND, even if it means sending it back to the person who sent it to you! If it comes back to you, you will then know you have a circle of friends..

YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!

Now send this to every friend you have!! And to your family (they need to know that you love them too).

Please forgive me if I have ever left a 'hole' in your fence.

lols was looking through my email and i happen to see this email. lols guess who was it sent from? my dad. lols it was quite an old email but i guess, i would have thought it was crap in the past. but now that i read again, i think its quite meaningful.

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city
that has no end,
Yet the days go by
and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face.
For life is a swift and terrible race.
He knows I like him
just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
'Tomorrow' I say!
'I will call on Jim'
'Just to show that
I'm thinking of him.'
But tomorrow comes
and tomorrow goes,
And distance between
us grows and grows.
Around the corner!
yet miles away,
'Here's a telegram sir'
'Jim died today.'
And that's what we
get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

hmm nothing much today. managed to complete my 5 剪报 hahas. hmm good start! JIAYOU! anyway bro went out. to celebrate his birthday i guess. tmr's his birthday and guess what? everyone acts as though we don't remember. evil huh? mum says we'll buy the cake tmr instead. lols don't know what she's trying to do. nth much today as well. hmm went to count how many days i have for revision and homework and tt will be 2 weeks only. argh. its killing me man! shall stop for now.

*P.S. phew! the sounds or should i say voices of people or rather mr chong and the seniors have finally long lost on 27. omg after so long. can't imagine it... everywhere i go i hear their voices creepy. its like someone talking to you but when u realise, there's no one beside you at all.

" Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult."

Yeah i just remembered today's thanksgiving
and so? what am i going to do?
thank everyone of course.
hahas thanks
hmm but most importantly..
hehe shan't say anything here.
or should say no one will know what im thinking lols
hmm homework starts from today and it sucks
so i guess, i'll start chinese tomorrow
wanted to do maths but was stuck straight away
then went on to geo. die. can't do because forgot everything i read

i Looked into the sky, and the Moon told me, " If love makes you cry, why don't you leave your lover?" i Looked back up and told the Moon, " Will you ever leave your sky? ~"

lols this quote do make some sense.. but im not the one who came up with this. saw it on facebook lol

there's not much things for me to say these days.
os should i say nth much happen or nth even happen
hmm nokia 5610 is fixed but my contract is over
so whats the point?
wasted $50 to repair it and took so long
hmm now not really in any mood to care if my phone is working or not.
lols waited for too long and so i give up
hmm shall just post pics

but why is it that things always turn out the opposite way? i don't know what exactly happened. do you still feel the same way as i do. or you don't at all. i doubt the things he said to me. i don't know if i should trust him. was it that he was trying to just make me believe him and then make me drift away from you. or were you the one who told him to do so? just to make me forget you? i really don't know. im trying as hard as i could to cool myself. stop myself from thinking of all these crap. i wonder why, i think im deep in love with you. why is it that when ppl try to talk abt relationship, i think of you and then i blush and kept laughing. and it really makes me wonder. i don't know why but when i think of next year alot of things started to appear in my mind. locker. how? i don't know. but it hurts me. would we share locker next year? or would we not? all these things are making me feel miserable. now that he's talking to me, i doubt everything that he says. not that i don't trust him but then, i don't know.its just you that make me feel diffrently.

back from camp and what should i say?
i love it! even though it was tiring i say, its worth it.
3days 2nights
hmm i don't know what i can say much about this camp
for all i know, the experience speaks more then i could say
1st day was... i don't know loving it.
it was fun. seeing choir members bonding together
but there were punishments. but i could say, it hurts me deep down seeing the juniors doing to punishment
hmm this camp not only made the others bond but in fact we seniors as well
loved the captains ball game
even though wasn't well at all.
or should i say everyone was sick?
love what we seniors did at night
the stupid or crazy things we did at night.
treasure haunt. they weren't scared at all. hahas it was sure funny with what the others did
hahas even though tired and only slept for few hours i felt energetic the next morning
slept at around 2 plus and wake up at 5 plus
2nd day was... alright??
didn't do morning pt for both days
2nd day we had a more fruitful time
what i loved most was the water games
everyone had a good time it was sure cooling when the water poured on me
hmm 2nd night had punishments till late
hmm i guess, i was "harsh" on them during the punishments
but then, it was to make them learn
punishments at night as well
after their punishments we ate cup noodles
so slept at 330am almost 4 coz we were talking
hahas what was funny was when we went to sleep
jiaying and joy woke up they thought we were going to do fire drill hahas
morning woke up late. lols
but luckily we planned waking up earlier so even if we woke up late we were still in time
it was damn funny in the morning at 640
everyone, the seniors sat up and stoned
mdm rosita was like, someone go down and take things with me for breakfast.
everyone stoned there and look at her
hahas in the end jiaying and joy went. they woke up earlier than us coz they slept earlier
hmm everyone stoned there for quite sometime then we went to wash up
still we were early hahas
3rd day was a day for loosening
we weren't as strict as we were
had games that were less tiring. reflections- talking
games that they loved in the previous days
to say, i kind of miss the camp when we break camp
i don't mind staying in camp for another few days
i developed a sense of loving to stay in school hahas
hmm overall, camp was awesome except for the part where by punishments had to be met.
it was really heart breaking especially if you were the one who conducted the punishment
no matter how much it hurts, we have to hold on to it
it was really a game of mind. how you control yourself.
you got to be strong
no matter how tired you are, you have to tell yourself you are not
you got to hang on
and i guess i did it!
yes, i was tired i can't forbid but i told myself i can take it.
i have done it. 3rd day was a day where you can see everyone shattered.
well when i went home i slept throughout.
dinner didn't eat much coz i wanted to sleep
so slept till today morning 11plus.
straight away eat lunch and now im still hungry
hahas one thing i realised
i felt hungry at many times in the camp especially at night(morning)
a meaningful and eventful camp.
3 cheers and 3 cheers for everyone
hip hip
hooray
hip hip
hooray
hip hip
hooray
claps lols

well, lunch for last day was with mr chong at terminal 2. sakae sushi. love it! ate lots. should say im hungry. hehe he asked a question which i gave no reply and instead i laughed. i kept laughing and laughing only. sensitive question lei. i was smsing so he asked me this. lai wo lai wen yi xia grace an lian de ren. hmm shi bu shi an lian hai shi yi jing bu shi an lian liao? hahas that made me laugh even worse. then he say my reaction very cute. lols how to react. confirm laugh de wad. hahas. *shy* lei me hahas. still i gave no answer. hehe. secret. but i think ar my laughter already gave him an answer.

hahas last post for today till coming wednesday
real excited and nervous for camp!
gonna wake up at 5.55am tmr
shall go and sleep.
anyway today skipped breakfast woke up at 12pm
kfc for lunch
bo bo cha cha for tea time
shall stop for now till another day =]

551th post

okay for this post is just pics
pics from the prom night still searching for pics of who i took pics with
but never mind shall just post all i have 1st.

♥melvin didi
alright alright im good right?
i give back my dedication ^^
thanks all these 3 years for all your help
always being there for me even though sometimes we would quarrel.
i guess that is what brings us closer isn't it?
i cannot really promise you that i cannot keep any secrets from you
but i would do my best to tell u alright.
promise would only be kept as a promise when not broken
indeed, 3 years passed and we're still as close. =D
♥Brother♥

graduation night yesterday was a success
we were far better then expected.
least our hard work had paid off.
buying things. decorating. planning. staying in school till late.
council.. done! yippy!
next up choir camp. real excited yeah hahas
gonna pack for it l8r in the afternoon.
hmm just back from removing the decorations in the school for ytd prom
hahas prom was fun. lols
hmm shall stop blogging. gonna catch some sleep l8r in the afternoon. real tired slept at 12 ytd
away and away... 23-25november

hahas went to look for ms yeo and was like.. omg la. odacians are like.. hahas stop that joke. i can take it but can he? im wondering how he felt. hahas still, i say, i can't help it but i love you. <3>

i don't know what im feeling again today.
numb? i don't know
tired? i don't know
stressed? i don't know
feeling? i don't know
i don't know is not an answer.
well, feeling damn tired. ytd slept at 12 plus. tired
victor victoria was hahahs great
pics i dun have. teacher then have.
hmm i dunno wad to blog.
council, choir... i think i almost went crazy today lols
the exco was like relax, relax..
lols i think im crazy. lols
anyway today was a glittery day for me. made the stars and the juniors were "irritating"
they poured glitter all over me
but im alright with it la.
nvm shall stop for now. craving for choir camp!
hahas

yongliang was like... ytd... he sms me... good night:) remember to kiss cherntiong good night:)haha lols he got me laughing hahas thanks man! hmm ytd was your birthday yet i couldn't do anything at all. =[ sorry. i can't help to say this but boy i love you. i never felt so deep in love before. and im as though im crazy over you. and mr chong, dun cai chuan wo la. u know i like someone ma. hahas but u dunno who. alright to say i was like.. dunno what to do abt ytd. hmm saw you today in school and i dunno how to react. i was not in a good state of mind today. very blur. i really don't know. when i looked at you i don't know how to react. all i reacted was just being shy. hahas i don't know if u like someone or not. but it doesn't matter. all i know is i love you.

went school today for choir
never go council
hmm busy busy
lazy to blog lols.
i got so many things i want to do. movie, shop, go walk at nature parks, rock climb, shop... study!!!
tmr going to esplanade for concert.
hais... tmr...
forget it...
lets get back. thinking if i should go back school tmr or shld i not. maybe not la.
still thinking...
nbm... l8r then say..
hais... tmr... ... ... ...
我会好好过
李玖哲
你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重都不在手中

我的爱就像天空
太放或太收你都只是风

你来过却爱上自由
你出走我不问理由

我会好好过等你再爱我
总有个角落会让你想起我

我会好好过等你再爱我
向右或向左都有我站在这里守候

你留下很多够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重重是爱太多
我会好好过当你回头
看到的一定是我

tomorrow's birthday and i don't exactly know what to do. how? i still can't forget things. you've left so many memories for me. or should i say too many memories that we've been together. a year of things that we did together. so much things that can't get you off my mind. why? why is it that its like tt. ppl have been asking me what has happened. but then i just say nth. its obvious tt we've not been tgt. why? i still don't find a reason why. we've broken up for 1 mth 4 days. but then, i can't seem to feel good. i just can't help thinking of you and loving you. its you that made me fall so deep in love with you. for all i could say, i love you and, happy birthday. i love you! remember our favorite number? 7 alright. love you cherntiong

hahas ate at brewbakers at anchorvale cc for lunch again =]
hahas know what? its almost 1 year since we ate there
mr chong, teresa, jane and i.
last year was mr chong, teresa, lynette and i
hahas last year we went on the 18 november and this year 16 november lols
cool huh? lols 2 more days then 1 year hahas
hmm anyway went school today for council and choir
hmm what should i say? alright? hmm tomorrow as well but tomorrow im going to dedicate my day to choir hahas
hmm has been really a tight schedule this week.
busu busy busy busy...
hmm excited yet it seems tiring for all these activities.
need to finalise camp stuff =] council grad nite!
hmm i guess today felt better than ytd? i guess so.
hmm whatever im typing lols

笨的可以
郭采洁
听你开心说着你的事情
我有一种莫名心跳反应
夜深人静时候突然想到你
没有原因没有逻辑谁能说明
总以为我们是地球的南北两极
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听
是我笨得可以我们早就相遇
我说服我自己这一切只是友情
是你让我相信两颗心没有距离
我才发现原来我爱着你
总是爱捉弄我寻我开心
从来没有想过会喜欢你
也许爱情就是没什么道理
缘分来临措手不及谁看得清
直到分开旅行我才明白
有好多的话想说给你听
是我笨的可以我们早就相遇
是我笨的可以没看穿你的心
还以为这只是爱情无聊的恶作剧
是我笨的可以我终于面对自己
勇敢证明我是真的爱你
我是真的爱你

我会好好过/ I will live well

你的爱很像泡沫
Your love is like a bubble
太轻或太重都不在手中
Too light or too heavy, it's never in my hands
我的爱就像天空
My love is like the sky
太放或太收你都只是风
Displayed or restrained, you're still the wind

你来过却爱上自由你出走我不问理由
You once came, then you fell in love with freedom. You left, I didn't ask why.
我会好好过等你再爱我
I will live well, and wait for you to love me again.
总有个角落会让你想起我
There must be a corner, which will remind you of me.
我会好好过等你再爱我
I will live well, and wait for you to love me again.
向右或向左
Turn right or left
都有我站在这里守候
I will be there waiting.

你留下很多
You left a lot here,
够我面对寂寞
Enough for me to face loneliness.
寂寞不重纵使爱太弱
Loneliness isn't overwhelming, though the love is too weak.
我会好好过等你回头
I will live well, and wait for you to turn around
会看到的一定是我
The one you see will be me.

woke up at 11 plus and on my phone
saw lutfil and bernice's message
i went rushed down to plaza singapura to meet them and yongliang
went to get docorations stuffs for grad night
hahas was quite fun walking around travelling from place to place
was so blur coz just woke up
hmm bought lots of stuffs
going back to school tmr
hectic schedule this week
16/11 monday: council & choir
17/11 tueday: i think still the same
18/11 wednesday: musical at esplanade
19/11 thursday: council
20/11 friday: grad nite
21/11 sat: ??
22/11 sun:??
23/11 monday: camp
24/11 tuesday: camp
25/11 wednesday: camp

gosh november is gone just like this? i haven do homework lei. damn it! haven study for retest lei.. im like in a numb mood. and numb feeling i guess. i can't seem to feel anything at all.
mood is like ________________________________________________so is my feeling. i don't know what im doing...

To see your love leave you for others, is one of the many hardships to bear in life.

Often times I am thinking,
dazed while searching my mind.
Slipping slowly into nothing,
releasing myself from time.

I appear to be deep in thought,
though I am sifting through clutter.
The amount of darkness inside,
could cause one to shutter.

Now my life lies in the hands,
of fate, destiny and chance.
As the life I worked hard toward,
ended quickly like a great dance.

I shall wonder during my days,
as to what might come next.
Hoping that I will survive,
with a mind so perplexed.

I foresee restless nights ahead,
missing your body next to me.
Wishing that I was strong enough,
to move on and accept your apology.

Like waves of the ocean,
this is a bump of many to overcome.
Having something, then nothing,
is returning to step one.

Though hard times will soon come,
that is just the way things are.
You will be cherished in my heart,
even though we will be apart.

I've been holding on for so long,
Holding onto a dream.
Telling myself you're still here, you're not gone,
But things aren't always what they seem.

I was so blind but now I see,
You don't love me like you once did.
Maybe we just aren't meant to be,
So I'm putting a goodbye kiss in a jar with an open lid.

I hope you miss me when I'm gone,
Think about me when you're alone.
If you want, I won't be gone long,
But I'll hide feelings that were once known.

I want you to know how much you hurt me,
And that I don't trust what you say.
I also want you to know, that the girl I used to be,
Is no longer here to stay.

You changed who I once was,
Because of your little game.
Now I am no longer blind because,
You and I can play it the same.

You are standing where I once stood,
Feeling a loss of hope.
You are feeling what I no longer could,
Trying to find a way to cope.

Now you understand why they say,
"What goes around, comes around".
You wish you acted a different way,
Because I did to you what you did to me,

And left without a sound...

Alright, im going to post a long post here i guess
chalet, i love it!
ok ok shall start from the very start.
10.30am on 12 woke up and packed.
waited at home for chiawing to reach my house
called, and i went down
went to kopitiam to eat while waiting for sylvia and wenqi
sylvia reached ate. kenneth joined us
wenqi went to eat at kfc with hidayah, afiqah, jon, ivan
then later sylvia finished, we joined them at kfc.
sylvia go change into class tee. chiawing and i went cold storage. but water
came back saw darren's message he said he saw me.
i was wondering around and dunno who's the one lols
couldn't recognise him lols
or should i say, i never seen him before so i cannot recognise him
ok after that went up to 1st floor. waited for jon, ivan. they go buy ice cream and water
then bus-ed to ehub.
soo jun, jun jie, haofan was there waiting for us.
hahas i could remember the very 1st thing was haofan said haha to me lols
then we went over to the chalet so deep inside la
then reached there tt time 1st thing ppl say was
grace grace u got perfume? faster take out spray
lols it really stinks la
the air there was stuff and stinks. so sprayed the whole place-- the girls side and the room
smells nice after that
then after that just slacked around
was there around 2 plus
then after tt went ehub to check midnight movie timing lols
buy cup walker =] the guys were at arcade lols
we went to buy snacks at fair price too
then when going back we saw the guys at cup walker.
we went to the toilet coz the hse one was too dirty lols
then went back and talked in the room
hahas take pics
others were downstairs playing cards and on the other side the hse some playing majong
then dinner wad bbq
helped out with bbq.
i ytd then realised i didn't eat the chicken wings lols
mr tong and mr ng came!
yiliang's parents came to help.
hope yiliang get well soon. he was actually sick
he even bought dvd and wii to let us play
so nice of him lor.
night sent chiawing, sylvia out. took pics of the pool
after that went back chalet went out with wenqi to talk lols
then came back looked at them play wii then i kept playing with the soccer ball-- junjie's
then jolene was bathing and junjie shouted don't touch my ball
after jolene bathed she came out and said junjie smth u said sounds so wrong
lots of us ton-ed throughout hahas at 4am dwayne, jolene and charmaine went to buy mac
lols then vinni, jocelyn and i were singing
time flies when we're having fun
hmm everyone was exhausted i guess so tired
morning went to watch sunrise..
didn't catch it =[ but its alright =] morning walk i guess hahas
then started morning with laughter
chicken breast... lols kept shouting. hahas this got everyone laughing
if u watched 500 days of summer u will know
hahas then went to eat mac for breakfast
everyone was blur can't differentiate the timing kept saying tomorrow when it was already today
after tt in the chalet i slept at the living room infront of the tv even though everyone was so noisy i still slept la
its like so tired. hmm slept for 30mins
then cheacked out
i can say i was blur
then went ehub for movie 2012
i slept in the movie lols. the movie was like 3 hours lols and i slept
only woke up at the very exciting parts lols
then after tt bus-ed home.skipped lunch.
slept throughout till night. dinner then use com then slept at 10.00pm till today 11.ooam
tried la. im like so blur still. gosh.
hmm love the chalet
i can say i got to know more about the girls
it was really different.
if given a chance, i would like this whole thing to repeat again =] love it lots
for all i can say, friendship can only be built as strong as a wall.
unable to be broken down if we are strong.
we will always be =]

2 days of chalet, built with stronger bond of love and stronger bond of friendship

12.11.09 - 13.11.09
U15 &U16
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=123315&id=687223894&l=5718f988ad
3e2 class chalet was AWESOME! It totally rocks. LOVE IT MAN!
Had lots of fun. Had lot of heart to heart talk to people.
BBQ was fun even though my eyes hurts when i was helping.
night or should i say morning some watched horror movie while 9 girls stayed in the room and talked.
3 girls downstairs with 9 guys
talked lots...
then after tt some slept while some of us went down
nth to so so sing... hahas using phone to sing... vinni, jocelyn, me
hahas damn high. at 1st felt tired but after tt ok
hmm didn't sleep and it was so tired
the others were like majong throughout..
morning went to watch sunrise but couldn't see it but its alright least we had fun even though we were tired
then breakfast at mac =] then i went back chalet and slept lols. totally knocked out
then woke up after sleeping for 30 minutes i guess then checked out.
damn blur la me
then went movie 2012... slept throughout the movie but it was good tt i caught the main parts when i woke up. 3 hours the movie and i slept lols
after that went home. hahas i love this chalet! hahas!!!
I LOVE 3E2 CHALET! lols