It's been ages since i last wrote something reflective and so tonight i have decided to be more personal. Having stayed home the whole day today, it has allowed me think through about what I've been doing in my life.
Firstly, i am proud to have completed a milestone in my life and it is time to move on to a new season. I am glad to have chosen to be brave, to be bold to go through tough times even when i felt like giving up. I am even happier to know who and what i have become in Christ today.
Today, i can't help but to keep on thinking about a phrase that has always been said to me and that phrase is "you deserve better". Let be real. I am back to my single hood and i'm just amazed by what people have been telling me. Many close friends said "you deserve better". Others said, "to be frank i thought you'd choose the other guy who was better and not him. The moment you got into that relationship, i thought you actually deserve a better guy". That very same phrase- "you deserve better", it's time that i give this phrase a thought.
I remember being in a few different relationships and of which 3 of the guys told me that i deserve better. I used to disagree, and i felt that giving my very best and not receiving what i should get in return was totally fine but today, i realized it is not. It is a relationship that will not work out because it is only me who is putting in the effort. I used to get so upset and frustrated why did the relationships end up with the same phrase "you deserve better". I finally see it today. Its been years. I have been so blinded and so stupid i would say. Thank you to all who has helped me to see what i was blinded by.
It's time to set some standard on the type of guys you want Grace. Making a mistake once is enough but making the same mistake over and over again is purely stupidity. But i am so glad to be out of a relationship. I feel so much more relieved. I feel so much happier, i feel free. No longer bounded by restrictions, no longer living in unhappiness. No longer living in discontentment. No longer have so face unnecessary challenges. I am living life happy because i know the love of Christ resides in me. I choose happiness because God has anointed us with the oil of gladness.
But well, i'm in no rush for any relationship, and i'm going to pray about it in future. For now, i'm going to put my focus on God, on the ministry, on my friends, on my life, on my studies. I am currently reading Joel Osteen's book- everyday is a friday. I am pleased to say that this book is really timely. A book worth a read. Yes i know you guys reading this post must be wondering what happened to Grace who doesn't read? I don't know too, but i know that i choose to read only certain books and most of them are Christian books.
Alright, i'm choosing to end my post here today. To you girls who are reading this, don't worry about me. I am really doing well. I know that if i ever need a listening ear, you guys will be there for me. Thank you for choosing to brave this storm with me ♥ i love you girls. I thank God for really awesome friends who stalk me on twitter. Thanks for texting me the moment you guys saw my tweet. Really appreciate it ♥