looking back at the foolish mistake i made in writing the post,
i wondered why did i write that
if to me putting in all your effort would be the best of all,
why didn't you choose the highest post?
i think I'm quite foolish.
why didn't i put the 1st one when you did so much last year.
now all your efforts going down to the drain.
why? you proved yourself so much last year but you gave up your chance to the others.
you were the highest in the level last year.
you're dumb? or lost all your senses?
now i guess its up to the teachers and "god" to decide your faith already
hopefully they talk to you and give you a chance to prove otherwise then.
if not you'll just have to take what you have.
no matter what, put in all your effort in everything you do.