memories kept

i have been longing to blog since the day of our syf ended
but to my surprise, my mood got over me and i felt totally down and didn't want to blog
like wad i said syf. yesterday was our syf and so we had to wake up early
5.08am i got out of bed. as mum woke me up. i didn't sleep well as i was worried i could not get up
everything ran smoothly and we went to school and reached at 6am
thanks to yvonne's dad for sending us to school.
everything ran and ended smoothly. what we was signs of relieve that syf was finally over
we were back in school and glad and cheerful
we ate and went back to class.
however, things were not as smooth as we thought would be.
4pm in the afternoon, mr chong drove, teresa, lynette and i to victoria concert hall to listen to the announcement of the results
it was a total disappointment
on the car i was nervous and scared of what the result would be like
upon reaching and next hearing the reults, my heart sank to the bottom
totally disappointed choir did our best in our singing
we thought we could clinch bronze but we didn't C.O.P
it was really sad. i couldn't describe my feelings at that point of time
it was a feeling of sadness, wanting to cry yet unable to cry
because i was trying to control myself
one because im diasppointed
second because i "regret" that i didn't manage to achieve anything before graduate next year
as you know syf is 2 years once so thats my last chance
i felt so bad and i had no mood yesterday night that i went to sleep and i still can't sleep
and this morning i was still so sad
people asked me about results and i didn't want to say C.O.P its just so disappointing
even i now i still feel sad
mr chong called for choir this morning to pick up their belongings and proceed to the humanities room
i didn't know what he was going to say but at least i know it would be sad
neither could any of us feel.. idk just sad i guess really sad
of course i couldn't help my self from crying out because i have been trying to be strong since yesterday
but its best to cry out and i feel much better now. one by one we all started crying out. even now i still feel the pain of hardwork put in but not blossomed
things were just unexpected
how strong can i be? i guess i can't
least i feel better after crying. really better.
anyway would like to thank all people who consoled me since yesterday night till today
and even now. thanks so much for the support and that you people were always there to make me smile and make me laugh
not forgetting out choir teachers mdm rosita and mr chong,
our conductor, mr hu and our pianist who put in so much hardwork and hours of tough practice with us.
i guess i see who are the ones who would be able to listen to me and hear me when i need to talk
who would be able to make me laugh and cheer me up
=] really thanks alot
what we've gotten is the results.
not forgetting the process of our hardwork even though our labour of hardwork did not blossom
its since been a long time since choir sang to our best.
we've tried our best and our really best
even with a heart that is still so down i believe i will get over it soon
so im going to think through about it and start focusing on my studies for now.
i just can't accept that fact that we put in our best but we acheived nothing.
forever dedicated to choir PHSSCHOIR