today was the last day of ADAM KHOO workshop
Thanks to AMIN, ANDREA, CANDICE and AMOS.
without them this workshop would not be made possible.
indeed i have learnt a lot from this workshop.
if given a chance to repeat this workshop again i would be more than willing to do it.
this has inspired me and motivated me
i can't deny that i cried today but why?
i can;t deny its the fact of guilty in me
what i have done. i feel so guilty
i wanted my parents to come that day but they didn't want to. but its alright even though its hurting
theres lots of things i want to say to them
i guess i won't tell u straight in the face but then...
i'll just say it here for at least, i will feel much better,
dad, mum, thanks so much for being there all these while. i haven't been giving my 100%. You have never given up on me no matter what happens. Instead you encouraged me. I still remembered this when i failed and you said do better next time. I have never forgotten this line. When i'm sick you took care of me. Thank you for the unconditional love, care and concern all these while. I'm sorry that i have been rude at times and refused to listen to you. But i regret now. I cannot make promises as i have broken lots of them. I'm truly sorry. I have not done my best in everything that i do. I did not do well for my exams this year and i really don't want to do badly again. i don't want to disappoint you anymore. Even though i know you compare me with others if that you want me to do better. But its hurting. I just hope you don't compare me with others. This is me, i am who i am. I want to do well for a reason, i want to repay you. Thank you so much. Enough disappointments for all of you already. I can see that you are also disappointed with me too. I'm sorry. All i want to say is, I'm sorry and I LOVE YOU!
I can't help but if i don't say all these i guess it would haunt me forever. I know and i will eventually tell you all these. May be i shall write a note to you. And probably sms daddy. And i will do it!
when it was the closing ceremony it rocks. everyone and in hand singing together. as well as e1,e2 and e4 singing in the library. the tears shed and guilt in us. i guess this has made us reflect and to me, really, enough and enough already. no more. i shall study NOW!