Often times I am thinking,
dazed while searching my mind.
Slipping slowly into nothing,
releasing myself from time.
I appear to be deep in thought,
though I am sifting through clutter.
The amount of darkness inside,
could cause one to shutter.
Now my life lies in the hands,
of fate, destiny and chance.
As the life I worked hard toward,
ended quickly like a great dance.
I shall wonder during my days,
as to what might come next.
Hoping that I will survive,
with a mind so perplexed.
I foresee restless nights ahead,
missing your body next to me.
Wishing that I was strong enough,
to move on and accept your apology.
Like waves of the ocean,
this is a bump of many to overcome.
Having something, then nothing,
is returning to step one.
Though hard times will soon come,
that is just the way things are.
You will be cherished in my heart,
even though we will be apart.
I've been holding on for so long,
Holding onto a dream.
Telling myself you're still here, you're not gone,
But things aren't always what they seem.
I was so blind but now I see,
You don't love me like you once did.
Maybe we just aren't meant to be,
So I'm putting a goodbye kiss in a jar with an open lid.
I hope you miss me when I'm gone,
Think about me when you're alone.
If you want, I won't be gone long,
But I'll hide feelings that were once known.
I want you to know how much you hurt me,
And that I don't trust what you say.
I also want you to know, that the girl I used to be,
Is no longer here to stay.
You changed who I once was,
Because of your little game.
Now I am no longer blind because,
You and I can play it the same.
You are standing where I once stood,
Feeling a loss of hope.
You are feeling what I no longer could,
Trying to find a way to cope.
Now you understand why they say,
"What goes around, comes around".
You wish you acted a different way,
Because I did to you what you did to me,
And left without a sound...