a question stuck me when angela asked me "why are u so inclined and crazy about childaid."

it set me thinking.

not only did that question made me think, it was also because of what mr tan ck said to me.

i went back for alumni meeting in the morning 7.30am. i slept at 2.30am yet i went to the meeting and i had childaid on that day too!

it was the most important day as it was gala night.

he talked to me.

he said "i'm very happy that you guys who have childaid actually made a decision to come to the meeting. it actually means that you've made a choice to cherish what you wanted. and it also means that it's something that you're looking forward to. you've made a choice and u cherish every opportunity given to you."

it really dawned upon me.

the things that he said to me really got me thinking.

yes, i took up the position in exco as a deputy president.

even to think about it now, i'm excited and happy. not to brag about it or anything but i'm proud that i decided to take up the post.

mr ong cp spoke about a lot things. but mainly kampong spirit.

one thing that i just can't stop dwelling on is about "commitment".

how far are you willing to commit how far are you willing to give.

ms thien spoke about the willingness to give and to share.

we all are far more lucky compared to the people in the past and others who are in need.

perhaps, all these that i've been thinking about all adds up to only one word. "PASSION"

thinking back of the memories that were still etched in my mind.

all those activities with the council and the choir.

all the cip that i did.

it really all adds up to passion.

the passion to help, the passion to lead, the passion to commit, the passion to give.

i guess, for those who know me well enough would have known that i would go all way to do something that i like.

and what more doing my very best and enjoying every moment i have and every chance i was given.

before childaid, i was very afraid i would be given a job where by i would not be happy doing.

but upon seeing the sph ppl and them "fighting" for me and the heart warming feeling by them and the praises they gave and the way they express their thoughts of me going back to help.

it made me realise how important i am to someone and how much i was worth.

perhaps all these while i was just afraid that i would be unwanted and not looked upon.

from childaid and the alumni meeting, i've seen how much i am being looked upon and of course, it gave me more confidence then ever.

having doubt upon myself every time, i guess, now i shan't.

it always takes someone to believe in you that you start believing yourself.

ironic but that's life.

back to the very first question.

why am i so inclined?

i just love helping others without anything in return.

just 5 days that i can commit to. i've did what i can to help the needy.

without each and everyone in childaid, it wouldn't be a success.

be it little minor roles or whatsoever, it means a lot to the needy people.

i believe in taking chances, grabbing every opportunity.

opportunities do not come twice.

once it's gone, it'll never be the same.

make believe and do your very best..

i'm willing to commit, to help, to serve, to give.

even if it's just a little it would help.

i could have used those days to go work but i did not.

instead i went to help for a charity event. why? i just can't explain. but that's just me.

i've learnt a lot from each event and it has made me grow.