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uncomfortablesoul:

“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the nightwith the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody lovesthem now and that nobody will ever love them,…”
“Do you ever just get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? you don’t want to smile, and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don’t know exactly what is wrong either. there isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who wont take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.” - Lora M. Heacock
It hurts to smile… I feel like I’m going to burst into tears. There’s just some days like this when it all seems to be wrong and nothing feels right.

“Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them,…”
“Do you ever just get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? you don’t want to smile, and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time, you don’t know exactly what is wrong either.

There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you’re alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who wont take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer.

you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.” - Lora M. Heacock

It hurts to smile… I feel like I’m going to burst into tears. There’s just some days like this when it all seems to be wrong and nothing feels right. Today is probably one of the days where i just wanna be alone in a quiet environment. For some reasons, i feel alone, really alone. My heart just can't seem to be at rest. I feel condemned somehow. But there aren't any reasons.

Sometimes i wonder, if ever i left, would this world still remember me or would i just be someone passing by. A rather weird way to phrase it but i believe someone out there understands this. Is there a way to ease my aching heart,  nor take that pain away. i'm still waiting for a someone, someone who totally understands me. To tell me i'm not alone, someone to assure me that they'll be there for me at all times, perhaps this isn't possible. May only God.

As much as people say, don’t you ever, ever think that you are alone in this world. When you’re feeling down,  lonely, as if you walk this road alone, stop. Stop and look around you.  There is always someone. There will always be someone. And if you see no-one, look deeper.  Maybe that someone you need lies inside of you. You will never, ever in this world be alone.  Just remember that.

And who would that be? Myself? I don't know. Maybe the problem lies inside me. That empty feeling, afraid... Maybe i'm just feeling insecure easily.