Well, it's been quite some time since I last blogged and the reason why I'm back this time is, I just gotta let go of whatever I'm feeling right now and this feeling kinda sucks.
It's holidays right now but who would understand the stress inside me. Yes, stress. A very different kind of stress. And I don't know how I should express it either.
2013, started out pretty well and it's still a pretty good year. Just that right now I just feel a so useless. I wish right now I'm living on my own, at least not with my family. And some times I really hate them a lot. It hurts people. It hurts. And you guys wouldn't understand how much hurt you've done to be because I'm always having this cheerful or if not poker face at home.
You guys have hurt me so much that my heart is hardened. And it doesn't matter anymore. So much so that I don't know how to show love, care and concern anymore. Each time all I do is to retaliate and I really hate it. But you guys wouldn't understand.
Sometimes I feel so tired of putting up my strong front in front of everyone yet deep inside I'm feeling all terrible. I guess there's just too many things that has been going through for the few days.
I feel so restricted and I really don't understand. I just feel like running away from everything. I'm so tired. Upset and hurt. Sigh.. how do I explain. Really don't know how to continue writing this post. But to cut it short, I just pray for all my friends and family that you guys will be safe, healthy and happy. And that will be enough.
I guess I'll stop here coz I can't go on right now. There's just way too many things on my mind. Sorry guys, I won't be able to go out on weekdays for now til everything gets better. And I hope i will be feeling better soon. Goodnight.